Social networking has stunted my growth.

I’m not sure if I’m going to publish my blog anymore on Facebook because Facebook now stinks. I’m not acting out, I simply don’t like how loud the page is when I look at it. I can’t find the updates on the people I want to know about, and then I worry that they’ve disappeared. Its confusing to me and I’m worried I won’t be able to find people.  Maybe I’m too attached to social networking. I think that after almost a year of being a stay at home mom, you kind of get like that – your contact to the outside world comes mostly in the form of status updates and recently uploaded photos that you can ‘like’, and instead of picking up the phone I peruse people’s pictures hoping I’ll get to know them better through photo album events.

Eek. Maybe I have to start calling people.

I do make phone calls. I just don’t know what to say to people I see fairly often on the phone. Why would we call to chat when I will see them this weekend, or probably sometime this week, or I’m just going to find out what you’re doing when you upload the pictures of it? <–Kidding.

I do wish I was like that though. Its not that I don’t see the value. In fact at a recent girls night out (with real people), one of my friends mentioned how she talks to so and so three times a week. Three times a week, on the phone?? I thought about this for a while and asked Tony if there was something socially defunct about me because I don’t talk to anyone three times a week on the phone. Tony said no. Of course he did. Tony also tells me my hair looks nice and I am pretty when I wake up in the morning. He’s a good guy.

Not sure why this is an issue for me…but if I had to wager a guess (and you can tell that I’m going to) I would say its because I feel like everyone else does it, I don’t, ergo, something weird about Katie. Heres something else. I’m always oddly proud of myself after I’ve had a long phone conversation with someone. Huh.

I’m great in person (is my perception). Rather, I have a great time with people, coffee, dinner, walk, what have you. I just don’t know what to say on the phone. Blerk.

So maybe this is why I’ve been so Facebook dependent. I get all my looky loo social interaction via the web and get to do those little updates normal people do over the phone. Maybe this is why I don’t like the new layout. Either way, I think its pretty clear I’m going to have to do a few cognitive behavioral therapy tricks to fix my phoneaphobia*. Here goes nothing.

*I don’t think this is a real thing. I am pretty sure that I made it up.